“Appreciate and enjoy the places where we tarry and yet pass on without anguish when we are called elsewhere.” Peace Pilgrim
I woke at 2:00 am this last morning. I scrambled to pack, sort and to sweep out each room as I vacated.
WILL IT FIT?
Friend Peggy gave me totes with handles and pockets, perfect for easy access in the car. I dedicated each to a specific purpose:
- art supplies – do I really think I will learn to watercolor after all these years?
- business papers – too overwhelming to discard anything right now
- office supplies –will I use that big hole punch?
- sewing items – will I continue to alter clothes while traveling?
- kitchen needs – won’t the rented kitchens have can openers?
- first aid – I could probably just plan to stay well.
- meditation materials – not yet ready to part with some wonderful books.
Looking at the growing collection on the dining room table, I despaired of really getting everything in the car.
PAM TO THE RESCUE
Friend Pam’s fortune cookie suggested that she visit a friend and it turned out to be ME. Our conversation centered on new possibilities in each of our lives.
She helped me load the bags– and they all fit easily into the hatch. Useless worry.
By the time we said good-by, I was fired up and ready to be on my way.
Next, I tackled clothes, laundry supplies, shoes, make-up, grooming aides. The totes became more cluttered as I tucked new items to any available corner. It was clear that I would need to sort, and pare down again, as I figured out what would really support me on this adventure.
Peace Pilgrim, I am not.
She walked wearing her one set of clothes, carrying a tooth brush, comb, writing materials and a little money. She didn’t eat unless offered food and slept outdoors unless someone offered a bed.
It was a wistful, teary moment, as I drove away in mid-afternoon with one last glance over my shoulder.
But I was also VERY tired and ready to be finished with the big 25-year ending – ready to move forward into the unknown.
It is sort of like having a baby. The process helps you be eager for the transition.
Friend, Carol took me in for the first night.
I am grateful for ease staying connected through technology, because I have not yet faced the reality of losing physical access to the dear friends who have nurtured me for so many years.